Ken is the opposite of me in most everything lol...hes really into tech stuff, loves it...I have no clue about any of that stuff...I love skating and teaching....he knows a little bout skating, but no skater lol and he is a little like me and tech stuff when it comes to my job lol (or what I used to do) he looks so serious and hes stable...I am so goofy and well I am stable in one area in my life lol and thats Ashley (when I am teaching its that to). I could go on for hours about all that, but it doesn't get to the heart of it...no matter how different we are, we work. We make each other laugh, and understand whats in the others hearts and heads (most of the time).
The night we met I showed up in ripped jeans and a hoodie, I came from skating...I know I looked rough lol, but the thing is, he liked that about me...we hit it off pretty fast, but I didn't want to love him, I kept telling myself not to fall for him, then one day I realized I loved the big dork...I have been sick since we first met, alot of medical problems, and hes stood by my side through everything....he never hesitated about accepting Ashley as part of the deal. He loves me no matter what and he supports my opinions and loves me even when he thinks I am being a retard...he holds me when I have nightmares and gets into tickle fights with me...he holds my hand everywhere...never hesitates. He is wonderful and I love him so much...Ken is an amazing man, and I do feel lucky we found each other.
Ken is so romantic, probably not in your everybody else kinda way lol but in ways that mean the most to me...like goofing off with me in a grocery store, or shooting each other with fake guns, or wrapping his arms around me from behind and kissing my neck...I love to laugh and he makes sure I laugh all the time...he hhas helped heal so many past hurts and he never falters. He makes me feel beautiful even though I see myself as gross...he looks at me and makes me feel like I am the only woman on earth...he sits and talks to me for hours in bed, even when I know he wants to sleep lol...and he is always there for Ashley...he gets her all the books she wants...he helps her with her homework and holds her when shes sleepy...he makes her feel safe after a bad dream and makes her laugh when shes sad...Ashley is very hard to understand sometimes, there are so many things in her mind and she gets upset very easy, and he tries to understand...
She loves him, and she treats him the way she treats me now lol like a little girl going to be a teen and thinks she knows it all lol...and I am glad he has patience to understand...there are times he wants her to stop with her fits, but he never yells at her...the other day Ash and I had a problem, she was talking to me in a way she never has before, she talked to me like I was beneth her...we had an argument and I sent her to her room, she started mumbling how she hated me and on and on and it hurt so much, she then got louder so I went in and told her it was enough, she didn't stop so I swatted her 1 time on her butt, she started crying and went to bed as was her punishment...I was devistated by her words, actions and my actions...its the second time I have ever swatted her, no I didn't spank, nor did I do it hard, but I was mad at myself for doing it, I was beaten as a child so even that light swat upset me...Ken talked me down...he made me see things different, and it helped...me and her talked about her behavior, and I am hoping it never happens again...but Ken got me through it lol cause I hated myself for not knowing how to handle the hurt inside me at the situation...
Ken helps make me a better person and I thank him for that
Ken is the man I love, the man I want to spend forever with, the man I want to help raise my daughter...I love him so much...I am truelly glad we meet and that he saw through my scared skater girl attitude lol...I wanted to tell you about him because I feel like in some of my posts I make him seem bad, hes not...I have trust issues and I have a hard time understanding why someone would love me...
Ken is my soul mate
(I will write more about the problem with Ashley tomorrow, that way I can get it off my chest)
1 comments:
Awwww, its good you found your soulmate!
Its funny how it creeps up on you and finds you, even when your not looking.
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