Tired...Tired...and did I mention

tired?

Yeah I know I say that alot, but damn it is true.
Been nearly 11 years of no sleep can kill a person...
I get a little sleep here and there,
but damn I want like 4 days in a row of pure sleep...
I think a large part of my inability to lose weight,
is due to a lack of sleep, I mean I have no energy ever so I don't have the get up and go...
I also think the depression is from this...

I have sleeping pills...Ambian...they do not work...

I also worry about taking sleeping aids because my daughter sleep walks, I am afraid she will walk out the house...

We bought a security screen to try and make it harder,
we can put a nail out of her reach in the sliding glass door,
we double lock the garage door...
but I still worry.

I am tired, truely bone weary tired...add pain to the eqation and well you get pissy lol

I have severe rhumitoid arthritis...I have it in all my joints...
My hip gets the worst, I was put in the hospital a few years ago for a long time...
The pain was crippling in my hip, I could not walk or move...I was scared...the docs said I would never be the same, even said I may never walk...I do walk all the time lol and no limp or anything...

I am afraid to go to the hospital, I go to much...but my hip is bad, the pain is getting worse ...I hide it the best I can from everyone...

I take asprin, trying not to take to much in the way of pain killers...so I am dealing with it now, and I need to get it fixed before it gets worse...

My weekend was pretty good...lol I slept off and on on Saturday...I got I think a total of 4 hours...but it felt so good...oh man did it...2 hours each time, I just couldn't keep my eyes open at all...felt so good...Sunday was Candies birthday party...I will talk all about it tomorrow...right now I am going to take 2 more asprins and go play with Ashley...Disney trivia...I am so the best lol...gotta get ready for our trip, I just can't wait :o)