Thank You

I wanted to thank everyone for their encouragment...its helped, and all the advice, I have thought about it all...thank you all for caring enough.

I am going to try and get more into the spirit, I need to shake off all the depression, I need to just regroup and all of that...

I feel like I have been in a really bad funk lately, I need to snap myself out of it, I hate where I am right now, the way I feel, being so sad and depressed...hell its christmas and I need to remember all the reasons for the season...I need to find myself again, and I will, I just need time...

Sometimes I feel like I am going to explode with all the things running around in my head, its also the reason I still can't sleep, my brain never switchs off...just keeps on going like that damn energizer bunny...

Tonight we went to my brothers to visit for a bit...he took me aside and told me I looked sad, that he was worried about me...hes sick, dieing, and hes worring about me...not good, not good at all...so I told him I was in a funk and I would be ok, he told me I better be before he beats me into a better mood, my big brother always makes me laugh...yep hes a dork, and I love him like crazy...

So I am going to start looking for the positive side of life, try to find my way to the bright side...lol wish me luck on the journey :o)