Tuesday, December 06, 2005

An old school Friend

I was told she was an old school friend that contacted him from out of the blue on that school finder thingy...it wasn't true

Shes an old girlfriend...a serious one...one that he loved alot and was helping raise her daughter like his own

I know this because I saw the email, I also saw through the email she was the one he was talking to on the phone...and apparently it was a very deep talk...

He just left, as he walked down the walk way to the car my heart hurt so much, I just want honesty, if it hurts me oh well, I just wish he had told me...the phone call rubbed me wrong, the way he wouldn't look me in the eye and he left the house, the way I went out to tell him his timer had gone off and he looked like I interupted an important moment...

So I guess I will wait till he decides to tell me, but for now I am sad, very very sad...feels horrible to feel alone when your in bed with someone...feels worse when you love them beyond belief and they repeatedly keep things from you...it just hurts me alot, I am not sure what I am going to do, if I am going to ask him or just wait...

I am so hurt right now, I am sitting here, silent tears running down my cheeks and hoping he really loves me as much as I love him, that his heart still doesn't belong elsewhere...that I won't end up alone in the end...but I also don't want to love a man who doesn't love me...I am not sure when I will be back on...who knows maybe tonight, or in a few days, I just need to crawl into a cornor and let myself go through this...

bye all
Posted by Carie at 2:42 PM

6 comments:

Dr. Deb said...

Just checking in to see how you are doing. I'm thinking of you.


xo,
Deb

5:49 AM
Nancy said...

Oh Sweetie! Men can be such asses! They are generally taught not to spill til they get caught. At some point you will explode, knowing what you know and not talking about it.

I can tell you stories, and not all bad! I am sorry this is happening to you. Just know, that we can never go back. He will see that when he sees her again. Things change and go on, it's just life. Hopefully, he will think about what he has and tell her so. As for him, if you decide to stay with him, just remember that you deserve honesty and love.

Please email me if you need to. Sorry Carie.

Comforting hugs,
Nancy

6:14 AM
honkeie said...

Count the lies they will add up and in the end u will get the worst of it. He lied right to you and probably still. I am sorry he is doing this. We are all not that bad....as least I can vouch for myself :-*

8:01 AM
Lois Lane said...

Get out of the corner. Ask. Demand an answer. Letting yourself sink into depression over him isn't going to do you, him or the kids any good.
You deserve answers my friend. E-mail me if you need somebody to rant or rave to. I can send my phone number.
Lois Lane

8:59 AM
for_the_lonely said...

I can only echo what everyone else has commented prior to me...ask questions..get out of the corner..you are with him, and you have every right to know what the heck is going on...for your sake..for your children's sake. Jennifer and I do not hide anything from one another..actually, it was a stipulation that we both had when we got together..to tell the truth, no matter how bad or ugly it might be. I wish I were there to give you a huge hug, sweetie..if you need anyone to talk to, you can e-mail me at saraitamargarita@yahoo.com. I'll be praying for you, adn keeping you in my thoughts.

Love,
Sarah

11:53 AM
A Flowered Purse said...

OMG i would ask for sure and find out, you don't deserve that girl.
I hope to read above that it has all worked out
Love
dianna

4:55 PM

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