Christmas...well if I have to...

Well I keep trying to get into the christmas spirit, its just so hard this year...

I love the fact I get to be with my family, and that we get a day all togather, but I hate that I feel like I have let people down, I hate that no matter what I do I always seem to come up wrong...

We got Ashley as much as we could and its enough, she will get more from the family...we got her 3 computer games (shes a computer nerd), a make-up kit for little girls, and some art stuff...we also got her a small toy flute and some fuzzy coloring page thingies...we just need to get her stocking stuffers and that will be enough...

Her friends were telling her the stuff they know they are getting, its a huge very expensive list, I thought she'd be jealous or upset, but alls she said was "it must be hard on your parents to try and get you al that stuff, I would never do that to my mom", made me feel alot better...

Me and her had a very hard morning, th whole back talking thing just got way out of hand today, I was so upset with her...I was crying and I grounded her from the computer and phone for 2 days, which will be very hard for her...I also yelled and lost it on her, let her know that no person deserves to be treated the way she was treating me, that she was hurting me and that no matter what she thinks sorry will not fix it...it will take hard work and alot of time before I forgive her completely...that upset her alot...

We have talked about it off and on all day...maybe she will start to change that attitude...be my sweet little girl again or at least a nice kid lol...

Tonight 3 times now a kid has gone to my backyard and tried to dig under my fence to get to my dogs, we believe he is trying to steal my little yorkie so right now I have my big dog out there to stand gaurd...if the kid tries again my dog will let him know that he will eat him...

Well I am off for the weekend, going to Kens house...get everything ready for christmas...talk to you all later...have a great weekend :o)