I am not good with drama...

Ok well heres my HUGE rant...

We are going to Disnayland Monday for 5 days...we have had it planned for 3 months now...Kens niece was going to go with us, I told her mom I needed a definate answer when I asked and she said yes....

3 weeks ago when school started I told her she needed to tell all of her teachers right away so that they could reschedule any tests and so on, I did it with Ashley...well I get an email from her today saying she has bad news...Alex can't go...she talked to her teachers and they don't think it will work cause she will miss large projects...

ok as a mom I understand, but as the person who paid 200 for her ticket and got a larger suit to accomadate her I am mad, I am mad that she left it for the last minute, I am mad that my daughte is hurt and crying, I am mad that I am going to have to work off this extra money with my mom forever because shes way way way mad...

but did I tell her any of this? Nope I didn't...why? because she told me all of her stuff in an email, I was so upset I was in tears, my mom screaming at the money, Ashley heart broken that all her plans and the fun she has dreamed of gone...I called Ken...he called and spoke with his sister...

DRAMA...I hate it...so I wrote an email...I wrote I understand, that it sucks but thats life and that I hope there are no problems between us...I didn't say "you always make plans with us then back out!" I didn't say "you should have had all of this done 3 weeks ago when you were asked to" and I didn't say "you really hurt my feelings that you couldn't call me, that you wrote me an email"

I am really sad, really depressed and I have no one to complain to, no one to hold me...nothing...no one...

Ken doesn't deserve to have to be put in the middle, my mom is really angry with me right now, and I just got my baby calmed down...so I am sitting here in my room trying to find away to make it ok for everyone else...I just don't know what to do...

Kens sister has done this many times to us...made plans with Ashley just to leave us hanging...backed out at the last minute...but you know what we all just accepted that it was part of her personality...and I do like her...ALOT...hell I like her better than my own sisters, but I am also dissapointed in her...Alex (her daughter) has been so excited about this, and well Ashley has been exstatic...and now its done...

Well we are still going on Monday and will not be home till saturday...My mom, Ashley and myself...and we will try very hard to have alot of fun...we will try very hard to make it a good experience for Ashley...she is so bummed out right now, hurt, upset, mad...

I just don't understand people at all...I have been on top of this from day 1 and I have tried hard to get them on top of it to...she said tonight she never said a definate yes while talking to Ken...but she did...I told her I needed a yes or no right then so I could buy the tickets and get the room...she said yes...so I went ahead with the plans...1500 dollars later and she says well sorry...

I am mad, but I will get over it, now I just need to hope there is no bad blood between any of us...that things will be ok...I am so sad, and mad and confused...

so anyways I will blog later...I know I am being selfish...that the world is fallign apart and here I am dealing with this...well I am sorry...just sorry