AHHHHH

I still need to pack lol...

I am over being upset with Kens sister, I know it was a hard situation for all of us to be in, and for whatever reasons it happend, but I needed to get over it for myself as well as for my daughter and Ken...

I was so sick, upset stomach and hives from just the emotional toll I felt...but I felt so bad that I put all of it on Ken, I mean he can't always fix everything for me, but he sure does try...Ashley took it very hard, she was crushed, she had all these ideas of doing things with Alex, but today she is over it, and is making new plans for her and I to do togather...I even promised to go to hell with her :o(

Ok going to hell is an inside thing...theres a ride there...Mr Toads Incredible Journey...well it takes you through all his mishaps till he goes to hell lol (gotta know the story lol) its hot in hell...so hot...they have all these heaters and they blast you...ahhhh its horrible, I always try to avoid it lol, but now I will have to go to hell :o(

I am like a big kid, I know it and so does everyone around me, I love the rides lol...the big upside down coasters in California Adventure Land as well as the baby rides in disneyland lol...its part of who I am, I love to laugh and I love to make Ashley laugh...I am very excited to go, to get away...but 5 days is going to seem like forever lol...

I will miss Ken alot, 5 days is a long time, I mean I know hes been gone that long for work, but I hate it all the same...I am so used to being able to talk to him at the end of our day, of knowing all is right with the world (or our world at least) to talk about my worries, my retardedness lol and all the things we see on TV and read...we talk about EVERYTHING...except about me...yeah I know wierd, hes trying to fix that as am I...just hard to change over night...

I also feel bad that he has to take care of my doggies...I have 3...I have my yorkie named Penny shes 4 pounds ummm well right after she eats lol...then theres lady shes a poodle/cocker spaniel mix...looks like a cocker but really small lol...shes so pretty, everyone stops me to tell me so, its in her eyes, I will show you later...then theres Puppers...hes an Australian Shepard, hes a funny boy who has seperation anxiety problems...gets really upset when I leave...

Ken will have to change his days completely...he will need to be up at 5:30 to put Puppers out (hes first) then at 6 he comes in and the girls go out...they stay out...wierd yes I know...heres the thing, the little dogs hate to come in lol they are raising some kittens in the backyard and will not come in during the day...I usually let them in and out all day but he will have to work...

so he then needs to rush home to put the girls in and Puppers out for awhile...then the girls go back out(they get really yappy when its to long inside lol) and then at 8-9 the girls come in for the night and Pup goes out again...and during all of this theres the cat...Mama needs fresh water from the fridge (man shes spoiled) in the morning....she will throw a fit if it doesn't happen...she gets fed a certain amount at night before bed...but she requires alot of attention lol...

shes my baby...she requires constant nurturing as she has FIP and gets sick alot...so he will have to do all of that...poor Ken will be very busy lol

I can't wait to go to the hotel though...its a nice suite with a juccuzi tub...ahhhh to relax wooohooo...me and Ash will share a bed, she will not sleep without me in a strange place, and besides I love to cuddle with her lol...

Oh and I get to see Goofy...man I love Goofy so much lol...but if you come here much you know that...I know we were just in Disneyland a few months ago, 5 I think, but we needed this break for other personal reasons...stress was getting all of us, so we have decided to forgive and forget all the uh ohs leading up to this and just relax...it will be nice...

Well I think this will be my last post until I get back next weekend so I hope everyone is safe and happy, I will miss knowing how everyone is...and Angel you will be in my thoughts and prayers all the time...Diana I will never stop singing the Annie song lol, its been in my head since I watched your daughters video lol and Annie I will do my 7 thingy as soon as I get back...now I am off to bed to cuddle with Ken and all the darn animals that hate sharing the bed with me lol

BYE ALL