one of those days where bed looks real good

I know its been awhile since I last blogged, theres a reason for it...I got a email from a blogger telling me that I was pathetic and all kinds of things for the stuff I write, that I was seeking attention...

I want no attention...yes I go to others blogs and reply, but only a select few, and I read their blogs daily, I feel like I know them, and I am awed by their ability to be open and I am amazed at the happiness they have found...I have this blog for myself...I am trying to understand myself better, to find some way to be happy again, if some posts seem dark its because I need to let those thoughts go so I can get over them...

If this blog is just for me, then why am I explaining it? I am explaining it so that there are never any more misunderstandings...thats all I will explain...if I am a wierd flipped out psycho then just leave :o) have a nice day