Hola

On a quest...a quest for happiness
looking for a sign
to let me be free...
stuck inside, hunting
looking for anything...
just to set me free.

I was talking to a friend the other day, about my insecurities and such...she told me that I see myself wrong because I have been conditioned to do so...that I see all the negative the way I was taught by my mom...
It clicked, made sence...
All my life my mom has commented on my weight, hair, clothes and so on...shes been over weight since I was born, and shes always put other people down...and I can see that I am goofed up cause of that, but I don't know how to fix it...

Ken is going to San Jose Wednsday night for work and will be back Thursday...and in honesty the first thing I thought about was he was going to be with someone else...I do trust him, or want to...there have been reasons for me to question it, but I love him and I need to remember he loves me...

If I can't fix myself, what use am I as a girlfriend, a teacher...a mother...I will do everything to make sure Ashley never turns out like me...she deserves better