A night Out

I need a night out...a night where theres no kids, no drama...just relaxation, fun and maybe a little romance...the last time Ken and I went out togather was forever ago, we had lunch togather for my birthday, other than that...nothing for like 2 years.

I want to just go out, have fun and just be togather...the 2 of us. Even something as simple as diner and a movie...just time to ourselves...we may go to Morro Bay next week for the night alone...but we will have to see if that happens :(

Somedays I feel like I just need to run away...to be free for just a little while...no preasures or worries...but that won't happen for along time to come. When we go anywhere with out Ash (seldom ever happens lol) I worry about her, worry about her head, or what shes doing or if shes being fed (mom forgets sometimes lol she used to do that when I was young to lol) but I mostly worry that if she gets a headache my mom won't know how to calm her down, to help the pain ease. I worry on a daily basis about the pseudo tumor, I worry that she may go blind or worse...shes my baby and I would do anything to make all her pain go away.

Ashley adn I are super close...she talks to me about everything, she tells me all about her friends and the boy she likes, about classes and everything lol trust me she will talk for hours if I don't stop her sometimes...after vacation when she had to go back to school she hugged me and kissed me bye like always when Ken takes her, but this time she started to cry, told me she would miss me...I love that kid so much, lol but I do wish she were a little more independent lol...she is my shadow at all times lol. I want her to stay my baby, but I also want to see her gro her wings and fly.

Well anyways I am off to a night of Solitaire like always lol...take care all :o)