Hulloooo

lol thats how my sister now says hello...why? Um I have no clue lol.

My sister Cheryl is a wierd person, but with all her wierdness I love the crazy wench...shes had a screwed up life but she never lets it get her down for long...

growing up my brother and I knew we had an older sis (dad is a dirty bird) but we also knew she didn't know about us and probably never would...David and I used to make up stories about what our big sister was like....wondering if we looked like her, or if she would like us...

When I was 16 my dad called and asked if he could come pick me up...he had a surprise for me...sooo I said ok...and thats the day my big sister became real...and she was nothing like I had imagined lol.

She was so tall...my brother and I are on the short side lol...she was full of energy and unafraid of everything...complete opposite of me...she looked like me in the face..cause we look like my dad, but thats where it ended.

She grew up with a little sister, so having another one was nothing special...but having a younger brother made her so happy...yeah it hurt, the person who I dreamt of, the person I always imagined as wanting to be my sister...well she only really wanted a brother...David was hyper like her and loud...so they got along good, I was quiet and withdrawn since I was a kid, I never fit in with my family...but as a kid I pictured my big sister being my best friend...reality sucked bad!

Well she had a hard ass time after that...drugs, bad bad guys...more drugs...then she had a beautiful little girl, and that sort of drew us togather lol cause I was the baby sitter...but she got back on drugs and the dad got custody...she then took her daughter and split...her daughter is biracial...and thats an important fact becase she ran of with a peckerwood (sounds mean I iknow but it is what his tatoo said) and he hated her daughter...the dad eventually got my niece back...and things were looking up for that sweet girl...

Well Cheryl finally came home...did rehab and is now a born again christian...I am happy for her...but man is she even scarier now...all about the bible and treats others like they are less than her for not being overly religious like her...I haven't really talked to her in a few years...every now and again she calls and says Hulloooo...but thats it, I miss the sister I imagined but I don't think her and I will ever be friends...its just not in the cards for us...

Besides I have a step sister and to me shes my sister, the one who let me tag along, that taught me about make-up and who took care of the big sister duties since I was a kid...may not be sisters by blood, but she is my sister and I love her completely...so I realized while I was imagining Cheryl, Crystal was the one who did everything I had imagined lol so I am ok with all this...I am even going to call Cheryl and tell her Merry Christmas...it will be the first time in years...but Crystal (my true big sister) always told me I need to learn to forgive...

Wierd post I know...but I was talking to Crystal and it made me think of how lucky I was to have had her as a big sister :)