As many of you know I suffer from a severe case of insomnia...I can not sleep at night. There are nights I come very close to OD'ing just so I can get 2 hours of sleep...I take the sleeping pill, benedryl and my pain killers...it gives me probably 2 hours...but its not a true deep sleep. I can tell you everything that people say and whats going on around me when I am "sleeping". It is getting worse and I am feeling worse due to it.
I am tired all the time, I am irritable and I have no get up and go, I know that if I could just start sleeping regularly then maybe my health problems would improve, and I will have the energy I used to have to keep up with Ashley.
I am also having problems with nightmares...I have always had them, but this nightmare is something I lived and it comes back everynight to make me relive it (or I guess I should say every morning) and its really taking a toll on me...I know I should talk about it to someone, but I just can't yet, its been 12 years and I am still not ready to talk about it to anyone, but when I do, I know Ken will be there to listen to me.
The pain in my hips and knees have been so bad lately...I have really tried to find a non medicated way to work through them, but damn it hurts lol. I remember when I was in the hospital for my hip...the pain was beyond belief and they couldn't control it at all for the first 2 days...the doctor said I would be in a wheelchair for the rest of my life, and sloly certain joints would fail as well...man did I prove them wrong, I did it with exercise and Ashley lol, but there are days when the pain is bad that I worry about that...but trust me I am no where near there right now lol :o)
Well I have pouted enough...lol I just needed to get it out...its my way of dealing with things, I write them down, then I wait awhile, go back and read it and sometimes then I see a solution or I get angry at it and I fight to find a sloution lol so thats all I am doing ;o)
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Friday, June 23, 2006
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- Carie
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4 comments:
Awww I'm sorry to hear about your pain AND your insomnia. I have had insomnia before, but nothing like that. Is there anything at all that helps either the pain or the sleeplessness?
Thank you for all of your supportive and sweet words on my blog. It means so much to me.
I, too, feel for you with insomnia, I used to suffer something terrible. However, I didn't have to deal with pain. You do know that your blogger buddies are here to listen to you. You have friends ready to lend an ear.
Hi Carie!
I am sorry I haven't been around in so long. I appreaciate you coming by and I do read what you right. It meas a lot!
I am sorry about your pain. It must be awful. What does your doctor say about it? Insomnia I do know. I have had it for years and have taken a lot of different things. One thing the doctor gave me that worked for years and is non addictive is Trazadone. It is an antidepressant. It makes you fall asleep fast and it worked to keep me out for a good five hours. That is a great amount of sleep for me at one time. Perhaps you can ask the dr about it.
You need to get some medical advice on what to do though. You should not be suffering! I know that I cannot do much, but I am here if you need to vent or need some sympathy!
Hugs,
Nancy
geeze Carie, something has to
change for you.
Maybe a uninvolved thrid person
would be easier to talk to?
I don't know, but you have to get
some sleep.
I think you aren't sleeping because you are afraid of the dream.
take care hun
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