DisneyLand

We just got back from Disneyland...it was alot of fun. The lines were so long for the "big" rides though...little did we know it was going to be spring break for LA lol...Ashley enjoyed it alot, she didn't want to come home. We took my cousin Charles with us so that my mom had someone to ride on the rides with lol, he was pretty good...he has wierd mood swings...up and down, drove me nuts, but I love the little guy and am glad he went. We had 3 day park hopper passes so we went to California Adventure Land as well...Ashley made us ride Grizzly Run as many times as we could squeeze in lol.

While we were away having fun, Ken was here baby sitting the dogs. Just before I left I realized I had never left him before...hes left town but I haven't since we meet without being with him. It was wierd, I missed him alot, but I had fun as well...lol I am one mixed up woman I guess.

Sometimes my brain keeps going and going and I can't get it to stop, all these scenerios going on that scare me. I am not sure if its like this for everyone or if I am just a big ol' dork. But I can tell the difference between them, and most of the time my brain just goes...but its when there has been doubt put into my mind that my brain goes nuts...lol no I am not brain damaged or schitzo or anything I just have an over active imagination...there has been alot of doubt in my relationship with Ken and I hate that theres been...I have done my best to make sure it never happens...but its been on his side alot of times, and thats when my brain starts going wild...and I get so scared, I mean if he wants to leave then he should...if he wants someone else then he should go...but just dump me first, theres no need to ever hurt someone that way. I do not think hes cheated on me, but I have a wierd feeling like hes been close...

Anyways I am gonna go get ready to get Ashley from school...and finish printing her pictures lol....

sorry for the rollar coaster ride that is my brain lol