Sumemr Cold

I have been fighting an awful sumer cold or something...I feel so tired and sick to my stomach...blah.

My dog Penny is doing good...it was probably the scariest thing ever...shes so small so seeing her not breathing and all foamy was so hard, I knew not to put her fully under cold water because that would put her into shock..so I was wetting her paws while massaging her little chest...it was just so scarey...we have only really let them out in the morning and night...

Today was in the mid 90's...it felt amazing...we have been over 110 for 2 weeks straight, oh man I am loving it. I know in 4 days its going back to the 100's, but at least for a moment I can try to revitalize my yard and allow my dogs to run around...this heat wave has hit so many people so hard...

For some reason (probably the heat) Ken has been snapping at me alot lately, and then he smiles and acts like it was nothing, but man it stings and sometimes makes me feel stupid...then he will kiss on my neck and such and I get a little angry, I mean he snaps at me, corrects me in an ass hole way or just gives me this look like I should shut up in one moment and the next we are supposed to be just fine...its driving me a little nuts...and its really putting a strain on us...hard to want to be loving when you feel all screwed up inside, I don't mind debating things, but there is never a need to try and make someone feel stupid if they have a different point of view...aghhh I love the dork, but right now I want to duct tape his mouth shut...

ashley has not been sleeping at all...I mean its lights out at 10...and at 1 or 2 shes still awake just staring at the ceiling, its driving me nuts, I mean I have insomnia, but I can't take my sleeping meds if she won't sleep lol...I refuse to be knocked out if I feel like she may need me...Ken does not have Mommy ears at all...I hear the smallest wimper, the little sigh, he hears absolutely nothing unless she screams lol...so I suffer with her, waiting for her to sleep...so where as I used to go to sleep at like 4...I am not going to sleep till 7 am and I am up at 9 so I am just so freakin tired...

Tomorrow I am going to a concert in the park...Josh Turner WOOOHOOO I love his song long black train...and the guy who sings the song...got a brand new girl friend...lol I love that song, it will be nice, the 3 of us at the park in our own chairs listening to great music lol I love nights like these...

I will write more later, the light is keeping Ken awake...night all