Lonely

No one understands just how lonely I get, honestly noone here cares. I am alone 90% of the day, and then even when they are home not one of them just talks to me.

Ashley is a teen, and face it once they hit a certain age they are never around, and I understand that, I miss her, but I understand...

Ken of course works, then comes home and plays with the puppies...after that he will read and ignore me til almost 1am, when i talk to him his eyes never leave his screen...makes me feel oh so special.

My mom, well she is the type of person when you talk to them they start a fight, so I try to avoid her conversations lol.

Except for the animals I have nothing and noone to talk to, noone to share anything with...

When you are fighting depression, honestly fighting for your life, being alone and feeling like this is scary...I feel like I matter to noone, I feel as if they all would just go on as if nothing happend if I disappeared...



I am just feeling truly lost right now, and with no safe place to turn I am just trying to fix it, fix me :(