Life is what we make of it

and aparently I am not making much :\

Things with Ken and I are strained at best, we spend zero time togather, never talk...nothing!

Ashley seems so distant, I mean we are getting closer, but there is this distance that scares me, worries me...

My mom and I will never get along...never

My grandma is going through so much, and its hurting so bad, loosing a person while they are still alive is hard to handle.

Life just sucks.

My pain is horrid lately, there are times when the pain is beyond bearable, but I put up with it, try not to complain, never let it stop me from living, but it hurts moe that noone here cares, noone seems to pay any attention or worry at all...pain is very lonely.

yup, thats life.