OH NO!!!!!

My baby girl is starting high school in the morning!!!!

Did you hear me?

My sweet little baby girl is a high schooler...yes thats right, Ashley is in high school!

LOL! I am so happy for her as well as heart broken...man I am a huge mixing pot of emotions right now, I mean I just got over her graduating the 8th grade lol...she is growing up way to fast.

She is so smart, and beautiful, and goofy...shes simply an amazing young woman, but damn it I want my baby back!

I still remember the day I found out I was pregnant, I mean I was sitting there at the recruiters office, and they told me I failed the physical, lol I was pregnant...go figure...then I had to call family planning to take another test to show to the school, while they had me on hold the song "Mamas little baby loves shortning, shortning, mamas little baby loves shortning bread" was playing over and over again lol. I took the test, they did a more detailed test, I was 6 weeks pregnant...I cried so hard, I was os happy.

When the nurse handed her to me, and she peed all over me, alls I saw was this perfect little baby with 10 fingers, 10 toes and all perfection, I was gone from that moment on, Ashley had my heart totally and completely...always will. I just miss being able to hold her, cuddle her, having that sweet baby smell surrounding me...I always wanted more children, but the reality is Ashley is all I ever needed, she is my perfect little girl, my amazing angel.

I am going with them in the morning to send her off to high school...to watch my baby girl walk away, and to know my time with her is winding down, in 4 years she will leave here for college, I will get the occasional phone call...and everyday I will miss her, everyday my heart will break...everyone has their reason for being on this earth, mine was to be Ashleys mom...and I just don't want to let go, I want to keep her my baby forever...