Again...

I feel as if Ken and I have taken 100 steps back, not only that, but I think hes cheating on me. Maybe not physically (yet) but emotionally online. He has to many fuckin secrets, to much bullshit, he has all kinds of chat things, an hides them, no hes not just not saying, hes hiding them.

I mean come on, we have been through this enough. I don't want to be near him right now, I break into tears constantly, I am just about done, hes hurt me over and over and over again with his online bullshit. I talk to noone now, because I felt it was wrong and I didn't want to hurt him, but he just doesn't give a fuck...I am not sure if we will last, I just don't know anymore...

I love him, I do, but how many times can someone be hurt before they just give up, before they are just so broken theres nothing left.

I am hurting, and he doesn't seem to care...go figure right, I am at a loss...

the internet can destroy a family a lot faster than it can help... when you write you want random play and anything you can get and flirt with stupid whores (yes they are whores, when they know the man has someone and still pursue them thats what they are) you get what you get...to say I hurt...again...would be an understatement, I have been destroyed.