Valentines Day

I am not a fan of Valentines Day...never have been. I hate that its all about gifts and fake sentiment...and at the same time I wish like hell this year would be different from others, but it won't be.

Since Ash was a baby I had her believing in The Cupid lol...that he would come while she slept and leave her something by her bed, its usually a book and a candy, I love that she always believed in it, hell she did until last year lol. My daughter has this huge imagination, she is an innocent 13 year old, as are her friends, not yet into boys (even if shes had a small crush on Austin for years) and they still play make believe lol...I love it...

this year she wants older books, so since shes into Steven King I am putting 2 on her bedside as well as a solid hershey kiss (the big one) I also always write her a note letting her know how amazing she is...I heard her on the phone a minute ago...she was talking about this ritual lol and she was shocked that none of her friends knew about Cupid lol or that none got presents for valentines...so funny.

Ashley bought each of her friends a gift, its always so hard for her to pick out gifts, she wants it to be something they like, something that shows she put thought into it and also that its all equal lol...poor kid had such a hard time trying to balance it all out. she also sent secret Valentines Grams to her best friend from a secret admirer (school sells them and gives them out in class lol). She wants her friend to be happy and to smile...so its all good.

I am still not getting any sleep...and I do mean any. I feel like shit 24 hours a day...I am run down and exhausted...I just wish there was something that turned my brain off. I have tried a few sleep pills, but they don't work, they just don't shut off my brain, so I get way drowsy, but I get no sleep.

Well anyways I am off to play with the dogs since its such a nice day...trying to teach them to catch with their mouths and not their paws lol...silly pups.