Home Again

Feels so good to be home...

We went on our vacation and took one of Ashleys friends...ohhh to say I am tired is an understatment lol.

We traveled down our coastline, started in Santa Cruz took scenic hw1 down to carmel, then to morrobay...off to pismo then solvang, after that we went to Santa Barbra and off to Hollywood...it was alot of fun but ohhhh so tiring.

The girls had a blast, giggled nonstop lol. We walked so far everyday my poor legs are beyond sore lol. We took them to as many historical sites as we could find as well as all the shops they wanted to see lol...and they played on beach after beach lol.

We saw all kinds of animals lol...there were the huge sea lions at santa cruz, then elephant seals down the highway...then we saw awhole pasture of Zebras, they were mixed in with the cows lol, then we saw dolphins and otters...we saw so much it was crazy lol. We took a ton of pictures, and I will post them all later...right now I am just resting lol...since it stormed everywhere we went I spent most of the time wet and now I have a cold lol...but such is life.

While we were gone I had my laptop so that when we were in the hotel I could chat with Ken...but he seemed preoccupied big time...huge delays in the conversation and so on...I know he was talking to that fuckin Jen girl he works with...funny how he can share so much with her and absolutly shit with me.

I am so tired of him being cranky from the stress at work, I am so done with him forever shutting me out...I am just tired of feeling like an outsider in his world. there are days I wonder if he really wants this...you know the relationship, family thing...cause trust me lately he hasn't acted like he does. I hate that when he talks to the bitch from work he smiles and laughs and shares everything with her...that he talks to her the way he used to talk to me...I guess I am at a point where I need him to either give me his all or move on...I love him with all I am, and I go with out constantly for him and Ash...I am just tired of coming in last in his life, that he no longer looks at me with that spark in his eye or just wants to talk to me, I try...but he doesn't deem to care anymore...ughhh I am tired.

Well I have done enough bitching...I am off to bed to try and recover a little bit and to unscramble my mind lol...

I will post all the pics later :)