As many of you know I have a half sister, full brother and a step sister...how sad is it that I never talk to my sisters and seldom my brother lately.
My half sister Cheryl came into my life when I was a teenager. David and I knew about her from day 1 but she was fed so many lies and BS that she never knew about us or that my dad was her dad. I always had thisinsane fantasy version of her, I imagined this amazing cool older sister who would become my best friend...but in reality she already had a younger sister and didn't seem to really get to know me as a sister, but she took to our brother instantly...talk about hurt.
She was alot like David...both very outgoing and loud...I was always quiet and shy...they became best friends, and I was left with nothing. I did try many times to try and get to know her, to bring her into my life, but she had so many issues and this anger in her, it just never worked...but I did have a great relationship with my niece, my sisters daughter. She would stay with me while my sister was at work and play with Ashley...they got along so good and in some ways started to bring Cheryl and I closer...but then Cheryl went in a downwards spiral and took off...I haven't seen Cheryl since.
I miss the insane dream sister I always wanted, I miss the sister I was just getting to know...but more than that I miss my niece so so so much. I have seen her twice since then...shes absolutly beautiful...shes 2 years younger than Ash I think, shes taking ice skating lessons and has such a funny since of humor...her dad (my sisters ex) sends me photos through email and keeps me updated, but I miss her so much. Tonight I reached out to my sister through an email, I hope it starts some sort of communication...i do love her, I just wish she would take a moment to get to know me...
ughhh anyways I just needed to talk about her, to get it off my chest...night all :o(
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Maybe your brother filled a gap in her life. But I know what it's like to wish for a cool older sister--I tried turning my babysitters into those. (Some were more receptive than others.) And I have a half-brother whom I *never* speak with and have only met a few times, the last time being at my grandma's funeral. He doesn't seem all that interested in me or the Dorkfish, and we just had to accept that, even though we didn't want to.
Anyway. All that was just to say I sort of get how you feel. I hope Cheryl responds soon. I hope your niece responds. I hope they can return to your life. And I hope you can be happy. *hug*
Keep calling and emailing. You will reach her. :)
Have a great weekend!
you are like me in so many ways. I miss my neice horribly and my sister needs to get over herself. Big hugs carie and hope ash has a wonderful first day of 8th grade wednesday.
Lots of love
dianna
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