Weak Veins

Well I spent Sunday in the emergency room...it was horrid lol

I am suffering from high blood pressure and I have been pretty sick, we went to the emergency room cause my blood preasure was 128/103 and people were freaking out over it, I was dizzy, sick, couldn't hold anything down, not even a sip of freakin water...so off we went, cause if I get to dehydrated I go down hill fast...

Ok so I have bad veins, comes from a lifetime of IV's, I spent 50% of my childhood hooked up to them and lived 6 months outta the year for 15 years in the hospital...so now when I need an IV I am in for serious pain. I always tell the damn needle people this, in hopes that they will bypass sticking me a million times and get the specialist...never freakin works!

So this guy is all excited, gets my IV in on the first stick...WOOOHOOO...but it hurts so bad I am in tears, I mean it hurt bad, and when he started the meds and fluids in it the pain was amazing...after 7 or more hours they say I am ok to go home now, that my blood preasure had come down ok....still high, but managable for now. So we go home and my hand is killing me, by the next day my whole arm is swollen and bruised from my fingers up past my elbow...he missed the damn vein and flooded my arm...

talk about pain, it hurts so bad, it still is throbbing and the swelling makes my fingers fall asleep alot, they say it could take up to 2 weeks for my body to absorb the fluid, I gotta bad immune system as well as all kinds of broken things in me, so when most people would be ok in 3-5 days I am still in so much pain. I hate hospitals, but I have no regular doc right now, my doc quit taking my insurance and dropped both Ash and myself...so I had no choice...

Thursday I had gone to the dentist for a really bad tooth ache, thats who said I had high blood preaure, I think I posted that below lol...so the tooth is pretty infected, I go for oral surgery on the 31st, I just can't catch a break sometimes...


Last night was back to school night for Ash, I got to meet all her teachers...most seem really cool, but one seemed horrible lol, mean and all uptight, my poor baby...shes in all accelerated classes so the teachers expect the kids to automatically know everything and then some lol...lucky for them I have a book worm who loves school...hell she even loves PE...yeah I know, its just wierd...I spent all that time ditching it and she craves it lol.

I got to meet her new friends, said hi to her old ones, and got to see the cute guys she has small crushes on...and I didn't embarrase her, wanted to, but refrained from it lol...before we went she gave Ken and I the no embarrassing speech, and since she really is shy, we decided to wait till she felt more comfortable there before we did drove her nuts...

Mentally I am doing a little better, still feel lost and confused and scared, but at least now I am working it out where as I used to do horrid things to myself to get through it...I haven't as of yet told anyone in my family...I will when I can better understand it.


My Pop got a new dog...sort of lol. See he raised me to love all the critters out there, and it shows in the zoo I own and the zoo I dream of...so when this little stray pup started showing up 2 weeks ago he set out to capture the baby and get it help...ohhhh papa, don't you realize we have a diesease, we touch a puppy and its ours lol...so he catches the scared little guy, puts it in the backyard with his dogs, and thats where hes staying lol. He asked all his neighbors and is posting an Ad in the newspaper as well as reading them and all that...but my pops now has a puppy he totally is in love with...so now he has 5 dogs and 2 cats...and my poor grandma has never been an animal kinda person lol...its so much fun down there now lol...


Well thats how things have been here, and I will be ok...and to the blog freinds reaching out to me...THANK YOU, I am sending out the requsted email so I have someone out there I can talk to, thank you for the help and for being willing to talk to some crazy california girl who is all screwed up in the head lol :o)