My First Day

Hello...my name is Carie and I am a 29 year old mommy to a wonderful 10 year old little girl named Ashley. I started this blog to have a place to pour my heart out and who I am doesn't matter. I am in a long term relationship with a great man named Ken. We have been togather 3 years and we have had our share of ups and downs. I am someone who has a hard time talking to people, I am so unsure of myself that I tend to be very quiet and I try very hard not to rock the boat. I know thats not a great quality in a girl, but its who I am...and although I am quiet I am also very goofy, I love to play around and make people laugh. I have worked my whole life towards a teaching career. I love being with children, I took every child development course offered at City college and I want to transfer to state, just right now in my life I can't. My dream job would be working with special needs children.

Thats some of who I am...I am also someone who hates the way they look. I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror...I hate that I have gained so much weight, that I got wrinkles and I look like hell in my opinion...its a huge problem with me, I am very insecure when it comes to my body, and it plays a big part in my relationship.

My daughter is great...she is so smart and beautiful...out of everything I have done in my life she is my greatest achievement. I am so proud of her...she is amazing. She is in GATE at her school and recently her history day project made it to county judging...she is so smart its scary at times...at 3 she was using huge words that I had to look up at times lol. She was 3 when I picked her up from my grandmas and she told me that my grandma left her flabbergasted lol she is a funny little thing.

I am trying to show people what my life is like and what I am about all in one day lol silly me I guess I should end this for now...and I am trying to learn how to put a picture on here lol