Always looking...

Ok so I will start this blog by saying we are all finally better :) I, as always, got hit the hardest with the flu, Ken had the flu for dummies (lol) and Ashley got pretty sick and lost her voice for awhile there. It just has to be said, taking care of other sick people when you are sick is the hardest thing ever, thank god for Ken lol...I could have never done the clean up part with out Kens help.



As you can see I changed my blog look...not sure if its what I want yet, but giving it a test run for now. I just felt that the darker look wasn't where I was at right now...looking for something a little more fun, so maybe this one will stay...who knows lol.



My poor sweet Golden Libby has what is called a hot spot on her rump...poor girl is miserable, unfortunatly she gets one every sumer, its because her fur is so think and it gets hot and icky right there...so she got a nice bath, topical cream put on it (again) and it is starting to look alot better...Leia (Libby's sister) is of course perfect lol...isn't it always like that, when one animal is down the other is great...and then they will switch around on you lol. Puppers hasn't been doing well the last few days, it takes him a very long time to get up because of the arthritis, and hi poor stomach has not been agreeing with him at all...add that to the fact he gets winded easily and I think I may have to make that horrid choice soon...not yet as he still wants to play and hes eating and all, but as his health gets worse I become more aware that our time togather is getting shorter...and thats so hard to accept. My sweet Lady is fine, happy and bouncy as always...but both cats are having ear issues...ughhh to much at once with my zoo.

Ok so as you all know beautiful, intellegent daughter has turned the dreaded 15...well see something happend when she did, she became a moody little turd :( I know its a typical teenage thing, but man she was so easy up till this year...no terrible 2's, 3's or anything...always so sweet and always polite. Ashley now rolls her eyes at everything I say, talks back and tends to lie when it comes to wanting to stay longer somewhere. See its nothing really bad...I mean her grades are still great, she has never been in true trouble of any kind...but these little things are working my very very last nerve. I do tend to look the other way at the small things, but I guess I can't anymore, she is at the point where shes being a turd just to be a turd....ughhhh teenagers can be so damn mean I tell ya! The back talking and rudeness are the worst, I am forever calling her on it, but the last 2 weeks it has gotten really bad, I let her know yesterday that if it continues then serious punishments were coming...I was grounding her...thats torture to a teen...when shes grounded I mean serious grounding, I take away everything as well as not letting her leave...that was my one and only warning. Any tips on how to deal with a teenager with out taking it personal, because I tell ya at the end of the day I am so sad and down and she has made me cry, the things she can say...

I know that all makes her sound like a bad kid, but really shes not, I remember that age, I was a major bitch...but never to my mom, she was struggling so hard for us and I never wanted to hurt her, but man to the rest of the world it was on...I was in fight after fight...suspended way way to many times, straight f's...it was bad, I worry Ash may take after me if I don't handle this right...I always worry she will end up like me...I was such a stupid mess, I want so much more for her...ughhh eye rolling should be illegal :(

Well I will write more later...Night :)