Never Fond Of Holidays

I haven't writen in a while, I just didn't know what to write.

Life has been wierd and sad and just all crazy here...

A few weeks ago some friends of ours from the race track were killed in a ATV accident, they were mother and daughter, on seperate vehicles. We didn't know them well, but we did know the families and their friends...and we have talked to both on a number of occasions...its always hard to say good-bye to some one at this time of year, my heart goes out to their families and loved ones. They were truely good people, the daughter went to school in our area, in the other high school in the district...they were so close, mom and daughter, I can not imagine how hard this is on the family...so sad.
There was another ATV accident that took the life of my nieces friend. Her friend Alyssa was feeding her steer with friends and fell from the back of the ATV hitting her head, she passed away the next day. My heart goes out to her family and to my niece and her family. I was a little younger than my niece when I lost my best friend, I never got over it, never got past it...I can only hope my niece can get through this, it breaks my heart to watch her go through all of this, to experience this kind of pain at such a young age...such a tragedy. My nieces friend went camping with us this summer so I had the pleasure of meeting her and getting to know what an amazing little girl she was...16 is way to young to end a life, I will never understand things like this.
Hold on I am not done...my cousin Nancy's step dad also just passed away. He had cancer and lived longer than they had expected. He was so loved, and I will forever be thankful to him for being such a kind soul to my niece. She loved him so much...I hate that shes so far away while dealing with this, I kinda get the mommy feelings with her lol...I babysat her every summer for so long...her and Charles are the 2 cousins I am the closest to, and I hate when things happen to them and I can't be there for them...so I am sending all my love and support to her any and every other way I can.
As you can see the holiday season here is pretty sad...so much lose, so much sadness...just when you start to feel happy and enjoying the moment, guilt creeps in...you feel guilty for all of the happy moments because they are all so sad......I am one of those people who wants to make everything OK for everyone...I feel so bad for all of the families, friends and loved ones that have lost someone at this time...at any time.
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I am sorry to bum everyone out...not what I wanted to do...just in a crappy mood I guess...good news is I am finally getting over my horrid flu :) This one truly kicked my ass...flu seasons sucks lol
We are as ready for Christmas as we can get...things aren't going to be on a grand scale, but they will be ok...we have our family and that's whats important :)
I will write again tomorrow...weird I have been working on this post for over a week, writing, deleting and so on...its always hard to get out the sad stuff...

I am hoping all of my blogger friends have a safe and happy Christmas and that you all get to laugh and stuff yourselves while surrounded by your family and friends :) Love ya all