I find that funny because her idea of metal music or alternative is Good Charlotte, she thinks thats hard core...sweet silly little baby :o)
She hates to be called a girly girl, yet she is one...she wants to be like me, a tomboy, but she worries about her hair, clothes, make-up and on and on...takes her over an hour to get ready, takes me 10 min lol...
She had us take her shopping the other day for make-up...shes 11, I let her wear a little on weekends, so I take her and we get her all kinds of cute things, pinks and such...she came home, took a shower, had me straighten her hair and then did her make-up...AHHHHHHHHHHHHH my baby was a little woman...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I so am hating the fact shes growing up, I mean I am so proud of her, shes my world...but damn it shes my baby girl, the sweet chubby cheeked baby that never wanted me to set her down now walks away from me to shop on her own, the little baby who let me brush her hair all day if I wanted tells me she doesn't need me anymore...the little girl who held my hand all the time...well shes still here :o)
No matter where we go, what we are doing, she has hold of my hand, never embarrased, never ashamed, just grabs my hand and we walk...she tells me everything, all about her day, what shes learned, what her and her friends did...everything lol...I love who she is becoming and yet I still miss who she was...my baby girl
I know I have been so lucky up to this point, shes remained alittle girl, unlike all the others who at 11 seem older than me...she still loves her dolls and her legos, she still gets excited to hang out with me...she still giggles uncontrollaby when I make a face at her...I am lucky...I just wish it would last, I am regestering her for Junior High on the 17th and it scares the hell out of me...
She went from fear or=f it to pure excitment, she can not wait for this new challange...and she still wants me to be there every morning to take her and every afternoon to walk her home...Every morning she holds my hand as we walk to school and on the way home, shes 11 and I still walk her, only mom of the older kids there, they all call me mom...I love it lol...I will miss it
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I am doing better, I am still dealing with so much that there are moments that I feel like I am going to explode...I share what I need to with my family and Ken, but all the rest is on me...
I kept it silent on the anniversary of Lauries death, dealt with it alone, I keep it silent that the pain makes me cry out...I am scared about what the doctors want to do with my kidneys, I hate my doctor...
I still have not gotten rid of this damn flu...2 months and its still lingering, I hate it, I am so damn worn out...
anyways I will update about the Kidney stuff later as well as all my other crap lol...
Sorry I have been gone...
5 comments:
I have been reading your blog for a little while and laughed a little to my self when you said your little girl wanted to be punk. Sorry but I really found this funny, as I find other kids trying to be punk but being as girly girl as one could possibly be lol. Hell I grew up with punks, the kind with missing teeth and the idea of soap was a foriegn concept. There are still some true punks out there but they are few and far between, and sorry to say I dont think any of them live in CA lol.
Hold onto your little one, mine was a baby and now he is ten. It was as if I blinked and he was running and talking back. But at least u had the time u did with her, I missed out on allot with my first. I just hope things will be better this time around with my other children.
Hope u feel better tell the flu he has worn out his welcome!
Wow, she's so pretty. It's scary how fast they grow up. I'm glad you have such a good relationship with her. It helps. I talk to my son about everything. It still boggles my mind that he is going to be 14 in a little over a month. Wow. When did I become old? I'll be 34 on the 4th of March. Keep up the good work and I hope you feel better soon.
she is beautiful carrie!!!!!! Sending you big big hugs for your rough time, If you ever need to talk IM me or email me
Love ya
Dianna
I think she looks just like you. What a beauty.
~Deb
She is looking so grown up in that picture! She wasn't looking like that on Halloween!
Aiyana want's to be a tomboy. I told her she would have to take off the skirt and fake nails she was wearing at the time lol.
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